Some people say dreams represent our innermost feelings. I think now I know what that means.

Last night I had wonderful dreams, dreams that I would want to last forever, until I woke up and real life hit me right in the face. Sometimes dreams affect me, but not as much as this time. In these dreams I didn't have superpowers, I didn't fly, I didn't see the cat running away with the car... it was something plausible, and very real, so real that my mind can't focus on anything else right now.

I have been wondering, what would really happen if this dream came true? Like every dream it's not something that could easily happen, my chances are very low, it could happen though, but it doesn't depend only on me.

And I also think about how far I would go to make this dream come true. I would do anything to make it happen. However, as the saying goes, "the higher you go, the harder you fall". That is perfectly true, the harder I try to reach this dream, the worse it will be if i can't. But know what? I don't really care about this, I think the disappointment of defeat isn't nearly as bad as the disappointment of never trying.

There is one thing though, which is my biggest fear. I'm afraid I could end up hurting someone, and I would never forgive myself if I did that. Is it worth the risk? I don't know...
Or even worse, what would happen if this dream does come true, but it isn't what I expect? I would hurt myself, and I would hurt who I don't want to.

What will I do? Do I live pretending this never happened and regret it for the rest of my life? Or do I put another person's feelings in jeopardy by trying something that has a very low chance of happening? Wouldn't this be too selfish? This is a lose/lose situation, either one can go seriously wrong.

Unfortunately life is tough, and so are its decisions...